(via vild)
i miss this ):
this is making me crying . I do know why . its because I don’t think me and F are goin to last forever.
forever is never , nothing last forever, the fact is forever is just a lie
we had so many issues but everyday, everysingle hours,seconds, breathings, I love him more and more and he does too . but I always being so pessimist . can’t be help. blame the emo-people please.
I wonder , how can a married couple divorced ? they love each other right ? they had children together. they spent most of their life making love or just having fun . but I wonder, how and WHY can a married couple divorced ? thats just so sad .
I always and will always be the one who starts a fight between us . I refuse to understand him cause I think he doesn’t understand me . I am just causin a big scene out of small prob . I know thats stupid but thats just life. :(
I can’t just be happy just because Im with him, I own him, I love him . I need more but he once asked me , “what is ‘more’ exactly ?” . I didn’t answer, I couldn’t answer. I didn’t and don’t know what I want . yeah, I want him but I already got him . I want his love, he already gave me love. he gave me more than enough.
so what is it I want ? I don’t know .
A happy ending or maybe someone just tell me that he and I will goin to be together forever .
and NOT EVEN DEATH CAN SEPERATE US . I am madly inlve with him . I couldn’t let him go no matter how hard I tried . please someone, tell me im goin to be forever with him and only him . COMFIRM IT .
and thats the prob, only god knows if I am goin to end up forever with him or not . no one knows .
I miss you fitri ,
