it breaks my heart okay ? eventho you only say “bye” cause you have to go help your mom or cause it is 6a.m in the morning, it breaks my heart . what if that “bye” will be the last ?
While we trying to fix things for her,
she was wronging out to nothing.
But I was the one
treated like a criminal for days,
unaccountable words and feelings.
Left alone while the world
said I could make her feel better.
So today I must say,
a part of me honestly hates you.
But still all I want is you,
and your love.
So come on and give it,
we both just forget it.
But when I look in your eyes,
I bet I see you feeling better.
True , He hates me — no , he hates the other side of me . he hates whenever I yell, scream, say something hurtful at him .
he the only one for me , he knew me , he knows me, he trusts me . I couldn’t betray him and his love . I couldn’t betray our love eventho it is hangin by a thread. any moment, any second, anytime we will fall apart and I , as always, do what I best, screaming yelling crying . but when I think why and how can we be like this at the first place, I lost my reason, I can’t see my reason, I don’t know the reason.
and right now, I am lost in what im goin to say . what i really want to say. ugh, i feel like an idiot somehow . LOL
“He was silent for thirty seconds, maybe a minute. I uncrossed my legs under the table and wondered if this was the right moment to leave. It was as if my whole life revolved around trying to judge the right point in a conversation to say goodbye.”
HAHA, I bet all the girls already through this moment . lol . well atleast I know I did .
okay, I just added twitter and tumblr on my blogger, (www.imspeakingloudly.blogspot.com)
my twitter only have tumblr on . Idk how to put blogger on twitter so I just leave it alone .
okay on my tumblr only have. . . well nothing except words and pictures :))))
alright, im done !